Wednesday, April 02, 2008

in with the in crowd...

I never seem to fit in very well anywhere.

Except at home that is. I fit in here just fine.

Out in the world is another matter. Out there with the people.

Today was an odd day for me... today I seemed to fit in just fine and truth be told I'm not quite sure what to make of it.

When school was out I went to pick up K and since it was such a beautiful day I said yes when she asked if she could sit with her friend in the sun and finish her lunch. There they sat, she and her friend, in the warm Spring light finishing a sandwich, drinking some juice. Smiling.

As they sat and ate I sat with the friend's mom... I woman I genuinely like. A woman I would call I friend. Hell for the sake of argument... I will call her one.

We chatted and laughed and then another mom we like came and asked to join us. We three formed a little circle talking of life, children, work. Laughing. Smiling. Wondering. Another mom soon joined in and the children continued to play. One here, one there, two way over there... they played all around the yard and as we talked we would swivel our heads to locate a child or two continuing to listen or talk all the while.

As we sat there I thought nothing of it at all. It seemed to most natural thing in the world as we lounged in the warm rays enjoying the day and each other.

It seemed like we'd done it a thousand times.

Maybe they had.

That effortless worry free conversation on the playground with the other moms, it was a first for me,

Normally I'm the one standing alone.

16 comments:

flutter said...

I just can't see it....you sparkle, to me.

Velma said...

I know what you mean, because it's been the same for me lately. I'm actually going to an event this weekend with my neighbor and some other moms I like and looking forward to it! Totally new for me.

missburrows said...

It must have been some sort of hallucinations brought on by the sun. I have no idea why anyone would want to talk to you, let alone sit next to you for hours on end.

Certainly not because of your charm, your sparkle or your wit. Nope. No freaking idea. Sorry I couldn't be more helpful.

Jo Beaufoix said...

Miss Burrows made me laugh, but seriously Cami, maybe they haven't sat with you because you are just too darn sparkly??

You're so cute, and sassy and sorted.

School mums can be so clicky sometimes. I just talk to everyone, and if they don't like it I just think, whatever.

I would talk to you my sweet. And I would call you my friend, in fact, I do call you my friend because you are wicked and wise and wonderful, and all other good stuff beginning with 'w', except wallabies. x

sybil law said...

The same thing happened to me yesterday!! Only this mom and I drank 2 bottles of red and I hadn't eaten alll day and today I feel like ass.
Still - freaky - and fun!

mielikki said...

it just goes to sow that you are able to extend your friendship to all walks of life...
and sometimes, it can even be nice.

The Immoral Matriarch said...

They liked you? They're fucking weird.

bellevelma said...

Why are you always standing alone? Think you're too good for the rest of us, huh? Kidding! Totally kidding! I wonder if the school moms will still speak to me if I pierce my nose?

david mcmahon said...

Ah, but we know the real you ... that's why we keep coming back to your blog.

123Valerie said...

I've got your back, CamiK. I suspect we could hang out with our wangs out with no problem. Metaphorically speaking, of course.

Lisa Milton said...

Mommies can be tough nuts to crack, cliquey if they don't know you. I know what you mean.

I'm glad you had a good time at the park...

Stu said...

I think you are more interesting than you give yourself credit for.

Glad you could enjoy our little bit of sun this week.

-Stu

angel said...

i too usually end up standing alone...
i'm glad you had fun, i hope it happens again!

CrazyCath said...

I felt that was quite a sad post and I can identify with the feeling. I am usually standing alone but over the last couple of years, I am getting more integrated. (That's because I am around more because I've not been working!)

But then I read the comments. ;0)
I came over from David's and I'll be back again because it would obviously be worth my while to call. :0)

holly said...

you see this is how it starts....first... a little 'oh let's sit and chat'. then it's a barbecue and a yacht club.... then it's "oh will you babysit our kids while we go to new york for three days!"

okay i'm kidding on that last bit. i actually met my best.friend.ever. because i sat on a bench after school and chatted.

best.

ever.

isn't sun great?

CamiKaos said...

holly: sun can work miracles.

crazycath: I'm so glad you came by. I usually know one person, or am friendly with one person... it was an odd shock to be surrounded by friends and not know they were there.

angel: me too. but not too often.

stu: I think sometimes my fear isn't that I'm not interesting... but that I'm a little odd. I'm okay being odd for me but I don't know that I want K to suffer for my oddness... although I suppose eventually her friends and teachers will figure it out anyway.

lisa: I think "cliquey" is exactly the word I was thinking...

123val: I heart you girl

david: I think I may have blushed. Thanks

BV: Yep. thats me. too good for anyone.

Tim: There's just no accounting for taste ;)

Mie: I'm having a sewing date soon with one of the mom's!!!!

sybil: Yeah. I did it without getting shit faced... but you get on with your bad self sweetie

Jo: Oh dear. Why must we live so far away... I need to hug you now.

missb: maybe it was my lint freeness

velma: I'm going to have a sewing date with one of the mommies.. she's going to help me with my new machine and we're going to work out some cool skirt patterns. I am so thrilled!!!

flutter: Maybe I was in need of a buff and shine...