Wednesday, October 24, 2007

no one is looking

When I am alone in my house who am I?

I'm a person who sings loudly with no care as to how I sound. I dance and cheer as I do the most mundane tasks. Sometimes I turn on soulful music so loudly I can feel it in my chest. I breathe it as much as I hear it and I turn circles in the dining room as I talk to myself or someone else, someone who is not here and never has been.

Or I play the same music as I sit here at this very spot and write and I sway my head back and forth feeling the melody. And I sing. Or I weep. Or I wonder how something I have never known can make me feel as though it lives in my heart.

Sometimes I make funny little jokes to no one at all, sometimes I wonder why I'm not doing something else, sometimes I lay quietly... not sleeping, feigning sleep just to feel the warm covers...

But I seldom find myself alone for very long...

Who are you in solitude?

10 comments:

Bubblewench said...

I am the fly on the wall.
I am the quiet one.
I sit with silence around me enjoying the nothing of sound.
I am peace.
I am relaxed.
I am not working.
I am happy.

sybil law said...

You know who I am = craaaaazy!
:)

mielikki said...

I read. I sleep. The music is always on.
And half the time, because I live alone, I wish someone else was there to make some noise with me.

Lori- Fairytales & Margaritas said...

Very, very rarely do I experience solitude. When I do I usually clean like a fiend, sleep, read and watch movies that no one else wants to see.

Jo Beaufoix said...

Love this Cami. You aways think up fab stuff to write about.

I'm very like you and Lori.
I sleep, clean, write, read, watch movies, talk to myself, sing, listen to music and just enjoy the solitude.
It doesn't happen much.
It hasn't happened in a looooong time.
But when Miss M goes to Nursery in late January it just might happen more.

Daveman said...

I'm not saying you're crazy or nothing, but if you want I'll see about reserving a room that opened up three doors down from mine at the Sunny Brook Institute for the Cerebrally overt. They'll allow Kaptain Kaos congical visits and the like.., and hey! They furnish us all with cool looking dinner jackets! **hugs**

flutter said...

I am the girl with no battle scars, who smiles, with teeth. I am the girl who sings with no care as to how she looks, and catches small little hints of fire in her own eyes.

Mr. Fabulous said...

I am generally very quiet. The TV is never on. I talk to myself a lot. A LOT.

Sometimes I will turn on the stereo and put it on a rock CD and dance for a little while.

And lots of masturbating.

Gunfighter said...

I sing.

I dance (which is an awful sight)

I talk to myself.

I read.

angel said...

i also turn up the radio or a cd and sing at the top of my voice! or i lie on my bed and read...