Thursday, July 05, 2007

take 3

It's one of those days where I can tell there is something I need to get off my chest. Something I need to say, to talk about, to discuss, to dispatch from my mind but I just can't quite find it.

I've written this post 3 time now, you wouldn't have cared for the first 2...

Maybe it's that K and I slept until 10:30 (she couldn't fall asleep until midnight and I didn't sleep until nearly 3am).

Whereas Mr. Kaos had to work today regardless of the late hour he fell asleep.

Maybe it's just that my cluttered mind that has something on it, something is weighing heavily on my chest. Maybe it's things I dare not breath. Maybe it's the aftermath of our big family day full of fun and friends. Maybe it's the anticipation of our impending trip. Only 2 weeks... and lets face it I am like a kid at Christmas with this trip. I just can't wait.

But no, it's not that. I just feel as though I am squeaking against the world but not quite making contact.

Nope, I'm pretty sure it's the trip, I feel like packing our suitcases and setting them by the door, I want to get our boarding passes and go to the airport and wait and wait until the moment I can hop on that plane with my kid and my man and fly on down for some fun. All just so I can see the look on K's face when she finds out what we're really up to...

12 comments:

Kami said...

You've been mentioning the malcontent here and there. So, what is it? Is it a restlessness, annoyance, in ability to focus, a growth spurt...what?

DaddyKaos said...

You never could keep your knickers up when you were looking forward to something. Just relax and go with it, nothing will change by your being antsy.

Oh, The Joys said...

Cami needs to find some Zen, eh?

CamiKaos said...

some zen indeed

Lori- Fairytales & Margaritas said...

You will have a blast at Disneyland. The new NEmo ride just opened. We're Disney fanatics (instead of Tiki fanatics) and go every year!

sybil law said...

I can't comment because you keep IMing me. :)
Oh - and I have the zen.

mcewen said...

so you're not a prime candidate for keeping a secret then!
Cheers

CamiKaos said...

mcewen: actually I am doing very well with the secret, Mr. Kaos on the otherhand is likely to blow it on accident by saying Disney over and over again...

julie said...

I think it's sweet that you're so excited. I know K (and you and Mr Kaos, of course) will have a blast.

123Valerie said...

"Squeaking Against the World" is a really good name for a band, Miss Cami K.

Bubblewench said...

Oh geez....just pack now and get it over with already...

Celtic Rose said...

Anticipation can do screwy things to your mind!